many people have the misconception that schizophrenia is a fancier word for dissociative identity disorder.
or in more layman terms, multiple/split personality syndrome.
it aint, my dears.
so dont say you're schizo unless you're delusional and hear weird things in your head.
this adjective is way overused.


jazz tapestry at chijmes.
good stuff to check out.


the one time it left a deep laceration.
where each attendance was another grim reminder of my incapability to meet expectations.
a test as to how long i could cling on to self-esteem before being trampled to death.
could it have been willing reluctance?
no, i think it was obedience.
to the One i was really doing it for.


psych notes.
i know you beckon.


change everything you are
and everything you were
your number has been called.

perfection at 5:20 AM